October 14, 2008
What do you think would be the best IEP accommodations for some with mild autism? I mean I can usually except change as long as it doesnt involve anything that would put any of my valuables at any sort of risk. Most of my disabilities revolve more around my other dsabilities and I was just curious to know what sort of accommodations you guys think would be helpful in considering for all of these disabilities and with Autism too.
Filed by misayuchii at October 14th, 2008 under Autism
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It’s not always easy being me. People always tell me I could be really successful and its true, I could be but you gotta be able to understand that in my mind its always hard because I have a hard time adjusting with all the social situations I need to go through. It’s just something I can’t ignore easily and think I can do it. I guess it goes back to my elementary years when my teachers hardly ever paid attention to me, maybe it was because they didnt know how to teach me but it put my self-confidence on the line. It made me think I was worthless and didnt belong in such a place I mean what else would you expect? I was only around six or seven when I knew I even had these disabilities. I wanted people to expect me for who I was not classify me as a first class retard because they couldnt seem to teach me. There is alot of things I want to do but because of my fear of getting trapped in social situations, I tend to have meltdowns when someone gets mad or something. It can be embarrassing and sometimes I put up a real fuss in public. Sometimes I do it without even knowing what goes on in my mind and probably because I always get a sensory overload.
I was never put into any therapy for the longest of times; they didn’t think I needed it and really I did because it would be nice to have someone I could really trust to let all these bad experiences onto and maybe I could build that confidence and maybe even get my parents and all the people around me to understand my needs. It’s hard for me to be able to fit in when everyone doesn’t give me any chance to explain what my needs and wants are.
I can’t use my voice to tell someone I want something. If I’m sick or if I need to ask something really personal I get scared of telling the person or asking them, even with my parents. I usually just give them signs by staring at them and letting them ask me what’s wrong. Sometimes I even find myself pointing to my needs and having a hard time trying to say, “I want this right now.”
Though, when I write stuff or even just typing something down and being able to put those thoughts down, just like I am, its like I can explain to people what I feel and make them understand that this isnt something I can control. It’s something that I don’t know I do and its all part of my disabilities. I have so much trouble excepting the fact that I am like this because sometimes I feel embarrassed when people ask me why I can’t do the things other people do like go to parties, get a job, and whatever.
That’s just how things are for me and I even except to go to college but by doing that I still think that I would struggle just like I did in high school. No one would help me in the ways that I need to be helped and everyone would always try to say that I can do it…they always ignore me when I say that its hard and keep telling me to try harder. I feel like they don’t know me enough and I feel like they just don’t want to ehar what I have to say.
I mean I’m sorry if I’ve never been able to express my needs but maybe the use of a voice isnt something I can use to explain.
Filed by misayuchii at October 14th, 2008 under Autism, Life
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This is my first time posting here and I hope that I will be able to meet other people like me. I’m sure you know how hard it is to make friends with strange people you don’t know and for me its even harder because I get scared of what people think of me or if they are really meant to be my friends. I usually have an LJ so if I forget about this place, don’t be alarmed. I’ll try to keep this journal up to date with more of my personal offline experiences since half of my friends on LJ don’t really understand my disabilities.
Filed by misayuchii at October 14th, 2008 under Uncategorized
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